Not pitying, just hugely compassionate for how you are feeling, being pulled in so many directions, by so many. Sending you strength and hugs and gratitude for ALL that you do and wishing you a week with some peaceful moments thrown in, till you get back to the comfort and sanctuary of your own space and home 🤗
Jude is definitely in my thoughts each day and hoping she is doing as well as she can be x Sounds like a really busy time for you. It's so hard being pulled in so many directions isn't it x Really hear you. Self forgiveness can be incredibly difficult. For me, it's not about saying the words to myself, but really feeling it in my body, an acceptance of whatever choices I made with the tools and knowledge I had at at the time, to learn and grow from that, but also to find an inner peace with it. My own thoughts have definitely beaten myself up, far more than anyone else could have, or the experiences they relate to. It's something I've certainly had to work on in therapy, and continue to need to do so. Whilst reflection and ownership/accountability is needed, those "shoulda, woulda, coulda's" are not always helpful and we can 'should' on ourselves too much. Emotional maturity is a real gift to be able to have the more difficult conversations too, to not shy away from them. Forgiveness is continual and you are really on that pathway. Absolutely no pity here for you, just honoured that you shared - vulnerability takes enormous strength. It's good that you released that emotion, instead of squashing it down. I think the more work you do on yourself the more freely you connect to your emotions. Sending you lots of love, as always xxx
Have caught up on a few rambles this morning....feeling good and empowered whilst cleaning out rabbits and hanging out washing....then son emerged angry at not sleeping again/it all being Dad's fault (timing of tablets)...what good timing to be listening to this!! Have not rushed upstairs to fix, allowed son to slam door, husband to huff off into shower....sat and listened to you instead Suzanne....and then just heard my husband go and apologise to son about getting tablet time wrong & hear him be cross about no sleep- "thank you for telling me that " was what has just been said.....be present, forgive self and others, move forward from this......not easy but try
Sending a huge hug to you Suzanne for just having your moment there. You do have a lot of juggling currently, so try and ensure some time and peace for you in amongst all this....wouldn't you tell us the same??
No pity , but understanding of being pulled in so many directions. Sending big hugs if you need that, but if not a place instead to share your emotions and to have someone to listen. Me and hubbie had lovely day out today, acknowledging that we couldn’t have done this even 6 months ago without anxiety- lots of conversations about what we did wrong, but didn’t know at the time. I spend very little time “digging deeper”, as I know probably won’t cope with what’s underneath without a huge amount of therapeutic support and of course we divert that to our young person . I instead have had a lovely day being blown about on the beach and fish and chips with husband. Take care of you Suzanne x
Not pitying, just hugely compassionate for how you are feeling, being pulled in so many directions, by so many. Sending you strength and hugs and gratitude for ALL that you do and wishing you a week with some peaceful moments thrown in, till you get back to the comfort and sanctuary of your own space and home 🤗
Lovely ramble today Suzanne, emotion is part of life and it's great your happy to release your emotion and connect with it.
Safe journey, big hugs , always a pleasure to listen to your ramble xxx😍
Jude is definitely in my thoughts each day and hoping she is doing as well as she can be x Sounds like a really busy time for you. It's so hard being pulled in so many directions isn't it x Really hear you. Self forgiveness can be incredibly difficult. For me, it's not about saying the words to myself, but really feeling it in my body, an acceptance of whatever choices I made with the tools and knowledge I had at at the time, to learn and grow from that, but also to find an inner peace with it. My own thoughts have definitely beaten myself up, far more than anyone else could have, or the experiences they relate to. It's something I've certainly had to work on in therapy, and continue to need to do so. Whilst reflection and ownership/accountability is needed, those "shoulda, woulda, coulda's" are not always helpful and we can 'should' on ourselves too much. Emotional maturity is a real gift to be able to have the more difficult conversations too, to not shy away from them. Forgiveness is continual and you are really on that pathway. Absolutely no pity here for you, just honoured that you shared - vulnerability takes enormous strength. It's good that you released that emotion, instead of squashing it down. I think the more work you do on yourself the more freely you connect to your emotions. Sending you lots of love, as always xxx
Have caught up on a few rambles this morning....feeling good and empowered whilst cleaning out rabbits and hanging out washing....then son emerged angry at not sleeping again/it all being Dad's fault (timing of tablets)...what good timing to be listening to this!! Have not rushed upstairs to fix, allowed son to slam door, husband to huff off into shower....sat and listened to you instead Suzanne....and then just heard my husband go and apologise to son about getting tablet time wrong & hear him be cross about no sleep- "thank you for telling me that " was what has just been said.....be present, forgive self and others, move forward from this......not easy but try
Sending a huge hug to you Suzanne for just having your moment there. You do have a lot of juggling currently, so try and ensure some time and peace for you in amongst all this....wouldn't you tell us the same??
No pity , but understanding of being pulled in so many directions. Sending big hugs if you need that, but if not a place instead to share your emotions and to have someone to listen. Me and hubbie had lovely day out today, acknowledging that we couldn’t have done this even 6 months ago without anxiety- lots of conversations about what we did wrong, but didn’t know at the time. I spend very little time “digging deeper”, as I know probably won’t cope with what’s underneath without a huge amount of therapeutic support and of course we divert that to our young person . I instead have had a lovely day being blown about on the beach and fish and chips with husband. Take care of you Suzanne x